Boys and Brains
Updated: Nov 27, 2019
Let's start this thing off with the boring crap first. My brain. It's been a weird week. I was okay at focusing on writing, but anytime I sit down to read, or something that requires not moving and concentrating, I flounder. I go see my doctor this week and you better believe we will be having some words. I MUST BE ABLE TO READ!
Another thing that happened was the person responsible for my PTSD sent me a Facebook friend request. Super weird and unexpected. We hadn't spoken in several years, but I thought "Sure, I'm over everything enough to be a passive Facebook friend." Nope Nope Nope. I was very wrong. The whole thing gave me a lot of anxiety until I unfollowed them, but then the nightmares started and I had to go in and unfriend them to wipe them out of my life once again. I was on the look out for any impact this may have on me so I think I caught it before anything too nasty got triggered. Woo for me!
Now, on to the story!
I'm done! I finished the novella yesterday afternoon. Two weeks, a little under 40,000 words. Keep in mind, there are pretty much zero descriptions within that word count so there's a lot of work left to do. Not too shabby though. Actually, I feel pretty damn good about it. Problem is, since I can't read right now I'm stressing about how well I will be able to revise this puppy. So I'm taking a couple days off. I'm going to draw up some maps and diagrams for my made up town and wait until I can talk to the doctor before really digging in. It's probably a good thing. I'm being forced to rest and take a step back from the story for a few days, which is recommended. But that doesn't mean I have to like it!
The novella to my series could only be one couple, a m/m couple. When I first realized that I was going to have to write some m/m lovin' I got to work. For the last couple months, I've read more than a few m/m romance books. I'll be completely honest, I was not prepared for the hotness. Here's the problem though, the vast majority of this market is written by straight women who, like myself, have never experienced an erection. So how do I know what they're writing is any good or if they could just as likely be describing what it feels like for a squid to ejaculate (do squids ejaculate?).
I had to dig deeper. I asked a few of my gay male friends, but to be honest they weren't a lot of help in building my reading list. Apparently I'm the smuttiest of us all. However, they did give me some amazing pointers about other things I didn't know I needed help with but seem stupid to ignore after the fact. Then I started asking a few of my other male friends about penis sensations. Yes, it was weird. But worth it! I got some really good information that I wouldn't have had otherwise. I would like to give a shout out to my husband for being zero help. Pretty sure he was weirded out by the fact that I was writing about sex and asking him about his penis all at the same time. It's research damnit!
Anyway, I wrote the scene but there is more research left to do. Unfortunately it is also on hold due to my inability to read anything for more than a couple minutes at a time.
So that's it. This week revision will begin, but slowly. Mostly this week is resting and prepping for revisions. My novella is pure shit at this point and I'm excited to get into the details and make it less like garbage and more like the love story my awesome characters deserve!